5 minutes of pure joy

Ok- I know what some of you are thinking, so get your minds out of the gutter...

Let me start at the beginning. My family as I have stated before is well...different. My cousin who we will call Tina is 10 years older than me, we grew up together and we are more like sisters than cousins, and I am more like an aunt to her kids. Our moms were sisters, I say were b/c Tina's mother died suddenly 3 years ago of a brain annuerism (sp??), so my mom stepped up and is surrogate grandmother to her her kids. Her kids consist of two teenage gilrs (18 and 16) and 3 year old little boy (second marriage). All three of them are blessings from the good Lord above but that doesn't mean that I don't want to knock them into next week at times.

A sidebar: Yes, we DO beleive in spankings, there was no naughty corner or time out at my house growing up. It was one of those things where my parents put the fear of God in me. All my momma had to say to me was, "I'm gonna tell your daddy" and that was IT for me. Just the thoughts that my daddy would be disappointed in me was enough to make me behave... My parents were great that way...

So at Thanksgiving tonight, after dinner we all kind of spread out, It was just me, momma, Tina and the 3 year old, we'll call him Thomas. Finding Nemo came on so Thomas and I started to watch it. Something amazing happened, Thomas came over to my chair and climbed up into my lap and just sat there for a full 5 minutes. The reason it's so amazing is that he never lets you hold him, let alone love you like that. I sat there with him and I was almost moved to tears. The love I have for him and his sisters is amazing. I prayed at that moment with Thomas on my lap that God would please bless me enough to have something as wonderful a child. It was 5 minutes of pure joy...

Ok, now you've seen my mushy side. My deepest darkest wish is to be married, have kids and take care of my family. It seems old fashioned, but that's who I am... Another layer to the onion revealed..

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving and I hope you all had a least 5 minutes of pure joy...