Not Much Here
So I've been reading and checking out everyone's blogs and I'm starting to realize something... Maybe I'm not very smart. While everyone talks about Ayn Rand and other pieces of literature that I've never thought of reading, I feel as though I have nothing to conrtribute. I'm starting to think that when people look at me or meet whether it be in the blogosphere or in person they just think I'm this pretty little southern Junior Leaguer trying to save the world one tea party at a time..While that is part of who I am, I am so much more. I find myself asking this question as I type, why do I care what people think about me? Why am I allowing other peoples thoughts or feelings make me feel inferior? I feel like that stupid character from Saturday Night Live-you know the one that always looked in a mirror and said: I'm good enough, I'm smart enough and doggone it people like me....
Nope, I haven't read half the books most of you all talk about and I probably never will, they just don't interest me. But that doesn't mean I'm not smart. I wonder if any of you have written laws that are actually part of the Tennessee Code Annotated? I have... I wonder if any of you have testified on numerous occasions before house or senate committees? I have... I wonder how many Tennessee Governors have you met? I've met 5.
Does anyone want to discuss healthcare in America? B/c I know the ins and the outs of it...
There now I've bragged about some of my achivements, do I feel better about things? Not really... I've never mentioned them before b/c it just seemed like bragging, which to me, is a very unattractive feature... They are just things that I have done...
What do I want people to think about me?
Hmmmmmm.
That I'm just a good person... a good person that cares about others... it's just that simple.
So to say there's not much here... I think that would be a mistake.... a mistake I commonly make, but battling one's own demons seems to be an ongoing process...
posted by beachgirl @ 8:30 PM
15 Comments:
Beachgirl you are special, did someone tell you otherwise?
And maybe we should hang out, I'm very good at makeing others look good.
RG- No, no one said anything of the sort. Like I said, it's my own demons I struggle with.. It's like when people talk about travelling- I feel very inadequate b/c I haven't travelled much... I just don't have anything to contribute to a conversation like that.. does that make sense??
pk- oxymoron my butt!! I'm telling EB you said that!!! but you know I love ya!
I actually feel the very same way a lot!! Maybe we just like to keep it inside... that's what I tell myself anyway.
I wrote a similar post a month or so ago as I realized that I don't sound or seem as smart as many bloggers out there that I read. (Even though I know that I am smart.) I'm glad to know I'm not a lone.
I could throttle you!
We've been talking about this for days . . you are HIGHLY intelligent. Someones booklist isn't what makes them smart. I know plenty of people - real and otherwise - that read and read and read, but don't retain or comprehend.
Think about Kevin Kline in A Fish Called Wanda.
You are SO special and SO smart and SUCH a wonderful person! Who cares if you've read Ayn Rand (though I really really really think you should and that you would like her works)!
Not reading the "classics" or the "right books" that people seem to think lead to intelligence means nothing. I have a Bachelors degree in english and a Masters in Creative Writing. I have not read most of those books that people think are needed. I found most of them boring or unapplicable to modern ideas.
Of course, I also wrote A papers over those books without reading them :P
I could never understand legal codes, healthcare, or computer manuals.
I read probably 3-4 books per week. But I read them because I want to, not because they are on somebody's list of "greats."
Thanks everyone but I didn't mean for this to be a pity party for beachgirl, but I do appreciate all of the kind words...
So, if this isn't a pity party, what do you want me to do with this fully stocked bar?
BG, does that mean our pie auction for Lizzie is off? We're counting on your guest list because we don't know anybody. ;-)
Now you know that most of these people wouldn't keep coming back here if they didn't think you had it on the ball.
kate- I think we should have a silent auction and a dinner for lizzie's fundraiser.. but she'll have to keep that liberal stuff under wraps- all of my friends are fat cat republicans, but all of them are willing to write big checks for worthy causes.. oh and pearls, wonder if she has any pearls? oh yes and a cardigan sweater...
Now I'm just getting carried away, but it's what I do...but it's not EVERYTHING I DO..
Thanks Kate, you're the best!!
BG, just so you know, I lean to the liberal side but I blend really well.
We're all part of the body of Christ and we have different gifts and talents to ensure that his works are done.
P.S. I've never read Ayn Rand either. I need to just so I'll understand why the jerky guy in Dirty Dancing told Baby to read The Fountainhead. That's a highbrow reason for reading isn't it?
oh so many good comments and not enough time--BG-you're the best, that's all that matters!
Hey, thanks for your comment on my "blog." So self-proclaimed Southern Belle, that's pretty awesome.. there's no place like the south, even though Florida might not be the typical "old south" its still down there.
Yeah I'm really excited about living in Charleston. I've heard nothing but great things about it (I'll be visiting in late Feb).
Man, great heritage! Southern and it sounds like you've had some great (and smart- NAVY) men serve their country in your family. Your Great Uncle sounds like a true Sailor.
My dad was a Marine, and I have two brothers in the Navy. Well one is out after six years, the other has been in for 10 years and got commissioned as an ensign a year ago. So I guess you could say I'm following in my brother's footsteps.
My oldest sister lives in Chattanooga. Ya know, Nashville has always been a place I've wanted to visit, but never been able to. I'd love to see the Grand Ole Opry and see Johnny Cash's records in the Hall of Fame. Although, I must say, country music now-a-days is the same thing as pop... it makes me sick.
Anyway, I'm tired.. thanks again for your compliments on my post.. ttyl.
lol, oh BTW... I was literally rolling when I read the, "Because I'm good enough and gosh darnit people like me" part of your blog. This evening at dinner, my mom was remembering when I used to say that all the time when I was around 14.. and so we got a good laugh out of that. Ah, good ole SNL.
Buggy- I love ya girl!!
Kate- I love what you said about us all being part of the body of Christ. I don't dislike liberals, I just like to give them a hard time- you can get some of them riled up like Howard Dean at his last rally... rahhhhh!!! ha,ha,ha.. I learned a while ago not to take politics personally, there are other things that need more time and energy- like faith.. That's actually much more rewarding..
CS- Precious!! You know I love ya!! you are too sweet, sometimes a jackass but still very sweet (hee,hee,hee)
Stonewall- you are an amazing young man... The Citadel ROCKS!! and you should grab your sister, and get to Nashvegas!! There's nothing like honky tonkin on lower Broadway!!
Teacherdude- you will always be smarter than me, but not becasue you're a teacher... You're tolerance has ALAWYS been higher than mine!! Love ya!!
Mike- you're awesome, only you would bring alcohol to a pity party!!
Mommy- thanks so much for stopping by.. I hope all is well with you!!
From Meg: "Think about Kevin Kline in A Fish Called Wanda." What's wrong with being able to quote Nitchze or Kant without understanding what he is even talking about????? Or that Otto has no understanding that Buddhism's central tenent is not "every man for himself". ;-)
Modern Day Stonewall--You have one of my favorite painting as your link. Great comments, and I LOVE Charleston...was there last year for the Coop R. Bridge 10K, great time, great drinking, WONDERFUL heritage in the town!
And Finally, BG--Don't put yourself down. Agree with Meg, just because one person's book list is not matching your own does not mean that you are any less (or more) intelligent, it just means there are differences between the two people, and differences are good, because it brings a new dimision to a friendship or relationship. Do you agree?
Hmm.. now for some reason *I* feel all warm and fuzzy...
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