The Belle of the Ball

Apparently when you head up north, southern girls become the belle of the ball...actually I wasn't really that far north, I was in Bethesda, Maryland...but I was the belle of the ball and my dance card filled up fast!

So I had to go to our national office for a couple of days last week, it's in Bethesda.. I was sad that I didn't have any spare time to catch up with my blog friends in the area, but I had a good time nonetheless...

Lately my self esteem has been in the toilet. I'm not really dating anyone and I have put a few of the pounds back on, so yeah, it has been pity party-ville for me lately. But apparently going on a trip to, of all places, Maryland, can really work wonders for one's self esteem...

So after our first day of a all day meeting, my colleagues and I went to a local watering hole for some drinks... Well we get there and we were having a great time... The bartender, Pete started talking to me and literally one of the girls with us had to tell me he was flirting with me... It's gotten so bad that I have to be TOLD when someone is flirting with me!! Then this other guy, Mike, hears that we are talking about football, so he jumps in to the conversation...so I now have the attention of two men, why not add a third? Seriously, this guy named Ryan decided to join the conversation... he was a total hottie, beautiful blue eyes and smile that could stop traffic! Literally, I felt like Scarlett O'Hara at the Wilkes bar-b-que with all those suitors around me... It was wonderful!!

I finally realize that I am actually very pretty, charming, smart and quite funny... I am not bragging, please don't get me wrong.. But the self realization that I am a beautiful child of God with so much to offer someone is a very good feeling. And if someone chooses not to be part of my life then it truly is their loss... and I refuse to let someone else's choices effect my demeanor/mood...

Eleanor Roosevelt said, No one can make you feel inferior without your permission... well for too long I have been giving that power to someone, I let him make me feel bad about myself, and I'm just not going to do it anymore...

Life is good, I am blessed beyond words... I hope everyone else is doing well, I miss you all...

Much love and many blessings!!

BG

I'm still here...

Hey y'all..

Just wanted to let you know that I am still here... The job is amazing, but I've been busier than a one legged man in a butt kickin contest!! I'm just feeling a little melancholy today... All my friends are home from Iraq (thank God!!), with the exception of my good friend RG. He was supposed to fly out of Baghdad on Sept.9 but I don't know if it actually happened and I haven't heard from him. And I feel awful b/c one of my friend's friend got home before RG, and I was actually jealous. I was jealous b/c he went over there long after RG and came home before him. My first reaction should have been pure joy that my friend will be reunited with her friend very soon... and really I am so happy for her and give thanks to God that her nightmare is over. I think I owe her a big fat apology....But my nightmare seems prolonged, and it is starting to really get to me. I just want to know that he is home, that's all... however, it would be nice to see him and hang out with him for a while but I don't want to ask for too much.

I think of it this way, when you give, you should do it with a pure heart, and not expect anything in return. But I realize we are human and sometimes when someone doesn't react the way we think they should, we are disappointed. So I am a smidge sad today... But it will be alright, I have faith that God's Will will be done...

So I hope that you will forgive me that I didn't really post anything witty, funny or just plain silly. But it is what's on my heart today... I miss you all terribly and thanks to those of you who have emailed to check on me... The encouragement has been amazing!!

Much Love!!