Letting go and moving on

I know I have written about this many times but this time I have let go of something I have been hanging on to for about 2 years. I have written about my friend RG a number of times and I have always said that we are friends... and that is true, but deep down in my heart my feelings for him were very strong, and I had hoped that while he was deployed his feelings for me would change, but it was not to be. I finally got to see him Sunday evening.. It was like looking at an answered prayer when he walked out of his house to greet me. We had fun catching up, but as the night went on, I knew I had to find the closure I so deparately needed. Well, I got it. There were no harsh words spoken at all, and I still care for him very much but right now we are not meant to be, but we will always be friends.

I prayed to God for clarity on my relationship with RG and I got it. God answers our prayers, but it may not always be the way WE want them to be answered...

So yes, I cried all the way home (about 45 minutes).. I cried for what could have been, what we could have had together. But all the while I knew I was going to be ok.. My best good friend Kari talked to me on my drive home, we cried to together and she lifted me up in only the way a true Christian sister could. I don't know what I would do without her...

I was still a bit sad Monday morning, so I emailed my best friend Dave, I told him what had happened and this is what he said:

Hey sweetie,

I am very sorry to hear about you and RG. It breaks my heart to think that someone else does not know the unbelievably beautiful, intellegent, witty, and awesome woman that I know and love to death. You are the one of the greatest single people I have ever known along with my Grandad and Parents. You can do anything that you want, people have this need to be around you in a crowd, and there is that smile that can light up a room in a second. My heart is full of wonderful memories of the things we have done. Believe me when I tell you this, this is RG's loss. This is not a Heather thing, this is a guy who obviously has no idea what he is passing on thing. Bret still loves you, I still love you, and that will never change with the passing of time. Just know if you need me then I am here for you every second of every day. You are wonderful.

I love Ya,

Dave

I cried like a baby when I read that... Who could ask for a better friend? What Kari, Dave and Bret did for me, that's what friendship truly is, and for that I give thanks to God above!

Today has been awesome, I feel like I am back to my old self. I am about to take a trip to NOLA to help with a Junior League rebuilding effort... I am so excited!! We will be staying in a condo that is in the French Quarter!! How great is that??!!

So again, I am letting go, moving on and travelling on this wonderful crazy path that the Lord has me on...I have no idea what is around the bend but I do know that I am beautiful child of God and He will lead me to what is good and right...

I hope you all are doing great!!

Much love,
BG

Galatians 6:9
Joshua 1:9